FIXED!!

Fixed my little Daniel problem. He was sooo nice about it, it almost bought a tear to my eye! would post the chat log but I have no idea how. Hmm. funny how I've somehow turned this blog into a whole boy thing but hey. I cant help whats on my mind. New person in the pictue now. His name is Mario *blushes*. He's white/Lebanese and spectacular! He's a whole other story as well so thats for another post. (Ive still got to explain the whole story with Jay) I know I know, one at a time but dont worry my intentions are pure, meaning Im a virgin and plan to stay that way for a while. Handed in my college application today. Lord knows that shit was long overdue. Anyway I think my dad is trying to peep what Im writing so Im gonna follow up with both boys' stories and more tomorrow (maybe).
HOLLA!

Karmas THEE biggest bitch

Okay so I admit, I deserved this. So basically, about 10 months ago I was talking to a guy named Daniel. He was thee sweetest thing you could ever meet. He made me feel comfortable, beautiful the whole shebang. Only problem was he was real clingy. So one day he says the 3 word sentence/8 letters that commitment-phobes fear the most and I backed awaaaay. We weren't even in a relationship so I was freaked out a little. So from ther I kinda ran away and ignored his calls and everything. Big mistake. Cos now guess what...I want him back. Problem is I havent spoken to him properly since around May 2008, and PLUS. Dude has a girlfriend. I know, shame on me. My girl spent about 20 minutes laughing at me cos I was so stupid. So now Im just gonna say sorry, start talking to him again and try and get rid of Serena. Yeah thats the bitch's name. (though she's probably the nicest person in the world.)
And thats not the end. cos for a while I was lookin at this guy called Jay, and he is BEAUTIFUL. Like seriously. He all built and light-skinnded and shit. (And yes I meant to spell "skinned" like that) Problem is he's real shy. I mean shy to the point where he wontmake the first move and lately he's kinda been givingme the cold shoulder which is exactly what I did to Daniel (except 10x worse). Yes I deserve it. Call me spiritual but I feel like the only way to fix it with Jay is to fix it with Daniel, even though they are not related in any circumstances whatsoever. I mean, Jay has his reasons for being shy which I will explain in a whole other post cos its waaaaaay too long but shit. Its getting ridiculous now.
Ooo! and about Denzel (see previous post) he's been released on bail and he had to wear a curfew tag, but regardless of whether or not he gets let off, the future looks pretty grim for him. Still relieved though.

Til next time.. ¬¬

Why Denzel?!

More news today. Turns out that a guy I used to like was caught with a knife over the weekend so he's in jail right now. Im totally disappointed cos I thought he was smarter than that. We'd liked each other for a while but nothing was really done about it so of course im feeling BLEH right now, The day was pretty grim as almost everyone was mourning Steven Lewis. Although I'd probabaly only seen him once or twice I feel like it affects me because it affects my community. I mean who next? Denzel (who wasnt the one who stabbed Steven btw) may get 4 years for possession which means goodbye to college and university. Damn shame.

Steven Lewis

Its all over the news that a guy was stabbed to death yesterday at a party. I didn't know the full details til today and to be honest it didn't bother me much. But know I know and it's really got to me. He was stabbed a party I was gonna go to. That really shocks me because I had planned everything from my outfit, to where I was gonna crash, but I dont know what it was that made me not want to go. I didn't know the guy but I know people that did and it just goes to show that death is getting closer. and its a scary thought. Im just gonna think a little. more later xx